Twisted inner workings.

people i am connected deeply to don't read this.

people who love me do.

however, sometimes one needs a place to rant and rave about other with whom they are deeply connected without any interference. . . .this is just such a place.

the current state of my life is a tricky one. i consider myself a loyal person so what happens when suddenly i am surrounded by people i call friends who are not loyal. who am i to decide that their display of non-loyal-ness is in fact just that. . .it's an indirect sort of violation on their parts, but i guess if i was in their situation i'd be more considerate.

i do label people. i do this with the assumtion that i am an ituitive person. when i am proven right and try to warn people about shady behavior i do not expect my statements to come back to me VERBATEM as if they were things i had never considered.

when i get married i will not be sending people invitations who think 'time' and/or 'money' is a legitimate excuse not to come. when really it's laziness all the way around. there are ways of earning money while in college. there are ways of getting places inexpensively. if time and money are factors i will keep my postage and the time it takes to lick an envelope and NOT SEND YOU AN INVITE. this will of course be after i do not attend your wedding.

my mother has decided she hates my future brother in law. oh thats right. less than two weeks before the wedding. nice huh? go fig.

• my car needs an alignment.
• i lost my debit card.
• i owe my roomate a large sum of money.
• i owe my landlord and even larger sum of money.
• i am fucked.
• i have to read pride and prejudice, canturbury tales and muerte de arthur in dos days.
• what is a poor girl to do?